In high school I had no problem with my weight and gaining so much really messed with my self esteem. Coming home to people and the first thing they say was "dang girl, you got thick" or "what were you eating out there?", it started to hurt after awhile. I just kept growing and I didn't think I could change it.
After awhile of self loathing, crazy diets, and intense exercising I decided to get over what people think and start losing for me. Not only lose for me but find the right size for me.
In total, I have lost 30 pounds. Some days I am satisfied with it but then again, will I ever be satisfied? I am still not the extremely skinny girl people knew me as. I debated going back to that high school size but it wasn't the healthiest looking either.
Right now, I feel pretty good about my size. At this point I just want to tone up. I do not want to lose too much, just stay healthy. I am beyond happy that I have to go shopping for smaller clothes! But I still fight with myself everyday.
So by march 18th I will be nice and toned and I will start training for a few long distance runs in the fall. Wish me luck!
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you go girl!
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