Thursday, May 31, 2012

Just Try



I cannot promise you that I will be there all the time


I cannot promise everyday will be a good one


Nor can I promise that it will be easy.


But I am trying to be kind and understanding


I am trying to be patient and non-judgmental


I know you will not be there all the time


I know everyday will not be a good one


And I know that it won't be easy


Just try to be kind and understanding


Try to be patient and non-judgmental


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Wednesday, May 23, 2012

If Only Your Attitude Changed



"I am in debt."

"I am in a dead end job."

"I need a new car."

"My family stresses me out."

"The person I am with is driving me up the wall."


These are the common annoyances that we hear all the time.  "If only everything was better", we continue to say, "If only my life was easier.  If only I won the lottery!"


Many people apply for new jobs thinking their situation will get better.  Many people will go to extremes just to be "happy".  What happens if only you change your attitude?


In a daily word I received through a friend stated, "God changes us before He changes our circumstances. We are thinking, 'If only my circumstances would change', when God may be thinking, 'If only your attitude would change!'"


Staying in the negative does not change your outcomes but it only affects the people around you who you are making your punching bag. Why dwell on things you do not have and cannot control?


"Bloom where you are planted!" - stand out at your job or wash your car to take some pride in what you do have.


Right now you cannot change too much of your circumstances but if only you were positive about what you have.


If only you understand that your debt may be worse.


If only you understand that having a dead end job is better than having no job at all.


If only you can see that your old car still gets you from A to B.


If only you can see that your family stresses are rare for those who do not have a family at all.


Even though your significant other is annoying and getting on your nerves for now but if only a lonely person would have someone there to drive them up the wall.


Not every circumstance is the same and of course some are better than others but if only our attitudes changed then we can start to see some of the changes we think we need.


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Monday, April 30, 2012

Distractions

I have been trying to find answers to why my plan is not working the way that I want it to and it has been driving me crazy.  When something really matters to me, it hurts to get rejected whether it is a person, job opportunity or even something I just want to do for fun - hearing "no" does not sit well with me.


Spontaneous people seem to have the most fun since they just do things on a whim.  There are times were I am spontaneous but for the most part I cannot let go of trying to control the outcome.


I am just at a point in my life where I just want to be stable, own a nice condo, have the means to travel, learn something new, excel in my career and advance my education.  Hearing "no" about an internship I really REALLY wanted hurts because I felt like it would have lead me to the things I am ready for in my life.  I tried applying for a couple PhD programs but they want 3-4 years of management experience and I am not a manager so I have to put my education on hold which also hurts.


After so much rejection for the last 6 months, it starts to weigh on you so what do I turn to?  Well lucky for me I do not have an addictive personality so a quick satisfactions works for me like getting my toes done and going to the movies.  Something that will take my mind off the negatives and at least put a smile on my face.  I would rather have temporary satisfaction in gummy bears and a margarita than mope all day.  I know what the reality is but I have been dealing with that for awhile and sometimes I just want a distraction.


It sucks to feel stuck with no options around you but at least my toes look good!


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Wednesday, April 11, 2012

My View

The view outside my window shows the beauty I could never make.  The buildings are designs I could never imagine to make.  The trees and flowers are always at their brightest color.


The view outside my window gives me some direction.  I hate to get lost in a place I barely know.


The view outside my window makes me calm.  Seeing the sun and clear sky makes smile and wanting to start an adventure.


The view outside my window makes me wonder where others are going.  What brings them here and are they enjoying the beauty around them too?


Open your window and enjoy your view!


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Monday, April 2, 2012

Light After The Dark

Anxiety, fear and loneliness.  How do you cope?


I cannot do anything on my own and I cannot deal with my emotions on my own.  I was told that God only gives you what you can handle.  I truly believe that is true but it is hard to believe that I have the strength to handle what I'm faced with.


So how do I cope when faced with a challenge that seems to never end?  I start to question myself, worry, doubt positive outcomes and drive myself crazy!  It is a lot of energy taken from me and even though I know everything will be ok at some point but it is hard to stay positive.


Trying to stay positive is the goal.  I don't want to lose faith because I know God will be there and get me out the dark days.


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Friday, March 16, 2012

Worth


If I have to beg for it, it isn’t worth it.

If I have to lie for it, it isn’t worth it.

If I have to cry for it, it isn’t worth it.

If I have to take what is not mine, it isn’t worth it.

If I have to degrade myself, it isn’t worth it.

If I have to cheat for it, it isn’t worth it.

If I have to love, care, be kind, be honest and cherish myself – I am worth it.

Wednesday, March 7, 2012

Working Out Ain't Working Out

It is really that unrealistic?  Can I even do it?  I see plenty of success stories but I never have a story to tell.  Weight loss has not been my friend.

It is not even about weight loss, I just want to tone up and gain my endurance back.  Is that too much to ask for?  I was working out pretty consistently until mid-December but for various yet legit reasons, I just can’t seem to find something that can encourage me to get active again.  I am the type of person that needs someone telling me what to do – like a coach. 

I hate the gym.  It is my natural enemy.  What am I supposed to do in the gym?  Ok, so I can run for 30 minutes, then what?  I can tell myself that I am tired or fake a cramp then leave and never really get the workout I need.  I can lift some weights, then what? Lift some more?  I feel so lost in gyms. 

I don’t mind running but where am I supposed to run?  I do not want to be interrupted by traffic, kids, stepping in dog poop or even run behind someone who knows you are coming but does not want to move out the way so you are no longer in your zone. 

I want to do something fun while someone yells in my face telling me to suck it up and do 20 more.

I think I am just making excuses again, let me just get up and go workout somewhere J